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FIC: Saving Wiles for Later (1/1)

Title: Saving Wiles For Later

Rating: T

Genre: Doctor Who

Author: tkel_paris

Characters: Ten, Donna, Jenny, Martha

Summary: Donna takes offense to the Doctor's remark about her wiles, but she's not ready for the Doctor's explanation.

Disclaimer: If he'd bothered to explain it rather than let it sound like Donna was a joke, then I wouldn't feel the need to write this and explain that I know the owners are RTD and the BBC.

Dedication: I'm pretty sure I can blame this one on tardis_mole. But this is for all the fans who hated that Donna was treated like a gag and not a potential romantic interest for the Doctor.

Author's Note: Donna and Catherine Tate keep getting the short end of the stick as far as what they're capable of compared with the roles they get, don't they? Well, this needed to be written then.

Posted as a bonus birthday gift to cassikat.



Saving Wiles For Later

Started February 12, 2014
Finished August 8, 2014

“Let's... save your wiles for later. In case of emergency.”

Donna glared at him, freezing him in his tracks. “What are you saying, Spaceman? That I'm incapable of using wiles, or that mine aren't worth a fig?”

“That's not what I mean!” he hissed in a whisper.

“Then what do you mean? Because it sounds like you're saying that I'm not attractive? That I'm too old to flirt with anyone?!”

His eyes flashed and he suddenly gripped her arms and pinned her against a wall.

Jenny stared at them in shock. This wasn't in any of her downloads.

Donna's eyes widened. “Oi, hands!” she hissed.

His answer was low and dangerous. “You want to know why I said it, Donna? I said it because I saw how some of the soldiers looked at you. They thought you were someone to be taken advantage of, who wouldn't be able to defend themselves. You've demeaned yourself with men before, throwing yourself at them for a quick marriage through desperation, just because he brought you coffee or took a bit of interest in you, and I'm not letting you do that again. There are other ways.”

“Wait, you're... protecting me?”

“You've been through too much with men who weren't worth your time. No more. I won't risk you or your feelings again.”

She frowned. “I'm not a weakling to be protected and coddled, Spaceman!”

“Sh-sh-sh! We'll discuss this later. Just let me deal with this one.” He let her go and quickly rummaged through his pockets.

/=/=/=/

Later, as the three were looking through the corridors, Jenny finally had to change the subject back to what her mind really wanted to know about. “Dad, what did you mean by saving Donna's wiles for later?”

The Doctor froze, choking on his breath.

Donna snorted. “Yeah, Time Boy, let's hear what you really meant by that. You said I shouldn't use them, which doesn't work against what you did to stop me.”

He refused to look their way, but he wasn't able to move. He just breathed in and out, like he was struggling for control.

Frowning at his posture and lack of a response, Donna snorted. “So, you can't even tell me? You talk all the time, but you never say anything important about yourself. Well, hardly ever. Not nearly enough to make anyone feel like they're your friend. I can't imagine how anyone could be convinced you loved them when you never mention your real feelings. Unless I'm just not the type to provoke that from you. I mean, Martha did say you talked about Rose all the time.”

“Who's Rose?”

“No one!” snapped the Doctor. “She was no one important! She just thought she was!”

Jenny took in Donna's sudden silence, then the Doctor's anger, and then looked back and forth. “Well, what is the truth, Dad? Rose must've been someone to make you react so sharply, and why did you tell Martha about her?”

Donna rolled her eyes in response to the Doctor's warning look. It never had any effect on her. “Martha fancied your dad, but he clearly loved this friend he used to travel with. Her name was Rose.”

“I didn't love her.”

Donna's eyes widened. “Then why did you let Martha think you did?!”

“Because losing her the way I did still hurt, and it was easier to let her reach that conclusion than to tell her the truth. I thought it'd keep her from leaping to the same wrong conclusions that Rose did about my feelings.”

“Obviously you know next to nothing about Human females, Martian Boy. Sometimes we need to hear things directly from the source, in plain speech. I know blokes aren't the best at expressing emotions, and maybe they're not geared toward it, which not enough women grasp. So... going to answer Jenny's questions?”

He took a deep breath. “Rose was my first companion after the Time War I mentioned. She saved my life the day after we met, when I saved hers. I invited her to travel with me... and I'm not sure it was the wisest decision I've ever made. She thought I loved her, but... she lied to me.. about so many things. And I... wish I'd been able to help her grow up. I regret that I couldn't get through to her, and that I disrespected her mother and boyfriend. And now I can't make it up to her or them. All I can do is mitigate the damage she caused, damage that I didn't know about at the time, and move on. And Martha proves I did a bad job of it. She suffered needlessly and it was my fault.”

“Humph,” Donna grunted. “Well, that proves you're a bloke, just like a human. But it doesn't answer her first question.”

“Which was?”

Jenny sighed. “Why did you want to save Donna's wiles?”

He paled, then blushed.

“That's an interesting reaction, Dad. Looks like horror mixed with embarrassment. I know that much from my downloads, but what do they signal? Why are you horrified and embarrassed?”

Donna snorted. “He's probably mortified that he has to admit to some really personal things to get us off his back. Must seem absolutely undignified to have to own up to his thoughts or feelings. Especially before a stupid pencil in a mug who's nothing special.”

“What?! Donna, I was wrong to say those things! I was hurt and angry I wasn't able to mope in peace. And I didn't mean that pencil comment was saying anything about you, it was a handy object to explain what happened to you!”

“You didn't exactly clarify that. 'Sums you up'? Sounded like you agreed with what Lance said about me!”

He sucked in a breath. “Donna... No, no, no, no, no! You are magnificent! You've stopped me, more than once! You made me save four people when I didn't think they could be saved. You showed me I failed to think the last time I saw the Ood. And you've... reminded me that I have a daughter to love. You are special!”

“So, what did you mean by saving my wiles for later? Is it so you have something to laugh at?!”

His eyes flashed again, and Donna had even less warning when he pinned her. Only this time he wasn't quiet about it, and he used his body instead of just his hands. His eyes bored in hers, and she felt her mouth go slack at the intensity of his gaze. And his voice went low, dark, and husky.

“You want the truth, Donna? Truth is, I have wanted you from almost the moment I saw you. You confused me at first, but I wanted you to come with me and it hurt when you said no. Enough that I didn't try coming back to change your mind. And when we met again and you said no nonsense? That hurt, knowing you didn't find me attractive. But I agreed to it because I was hoping that one day I could persuade you that it'd be okay to be with me. That's why I stopped you from flirting with that soldier, Donna, because I'm living with the hope that one day you'll take back that no nonsense demand and I can be the sole recipient of your wiles.”

Donna was silent, her mouth moving without her awareness.

Jenny blinked. The words were all understandable on their own, but the meaning when combined was baffling her. Say nothing of how he was holding Donna against the wall. “What's nonsense, and would this mean Donna's my mum?”

Her question broke through the Doctor's haze, making him blush and yet he didn't move. He wouldn't until either Donna spoke or something forced them to move.

/=/=/=/

The Doctor stared at Jenny's body lying there before him. His attention was almost completely on her.

Almost. The rest was on the hands holding his. Donna's hands, as she sat beside him. He wondered how much of it was because she wanted to be right there, and how much the people and Messaline felt it was her place to be there.

Would it have happened without Jenny's final request?

You're going to be brilliant,” he choked, not willing to believe she was dying.

Jenny turned her eyes away from him. “Mum?”

Martha blinked, and looked at Donna, whose gaze Jenny seemed to be trying to catch. The ginger took a deep breath and took Jenny's free hand in hers.

Yes, love?”

Jenny finally met her eyes and pleaded with her. “Please... even if there are laws... let Dad love you. Don't let me be an... only child.”

She and the Doctor gasped.

Please, Mum... promise me,” Jenny gasped, her strength fading rapidly.

Donna found her voice, although it was a bare whisper. “I... I promise, Jenny. I will.”

The girl smiled and closed her eyes, the fight leaving her body.

He risked looking away from his daughter's body. He discovered Donna staring similarly. “Donna?”

“Yeah?”

“Did you promise Jenny just so she could die in peace?”

Donna gulped. “I... I wouldn't do that. It'd be wrong to both of you.”

“But you don't want me, do you?”

The tiny voice broke her heart, and compelled her to more honesty than she was planning to give. “You still scare me sometimes, Spaceman, but... I wouldn't want to have a regular life anymore. I... I would've been a mum to her had she lived, and... you're a pretty good dad, you know that?”

“Now you're the one not answering the question.”

She shot him a dark glare, but there was no force behind it. “Pot, meet kettle.”

He managed a smile for a few seconds before it faded.

“But to answer... It's also too easy to be dazzled by you, and you don't need people admiring and adoring you. Your ego's too big already. But... when you seemed to still be in love with Rose and spoke of how things got complicated with Martha... I thought you couldn't possibly want me.”

“So I'm terrible at expressing my feelings. Big news. In any case, what does that mean... for us?”

“It means I meant it when I promised her. I'll... be with you as long as my forever lasts, and if we can give Jenny siblings... I'd love to.”

He started crying as he tugged her into a big embrace, and she cried in return – he into her hair and her into his shoulder. But the hug promised that they would stand up to the future, together.

They almost missed Jenny reviving. At least until her voice burst with, “Yes! You're together!”

THE END

Comments

( 23 comments — Leave a comment )
cannibalilly
Aug. 8th, 2014 08:30 pm (UTC)
Thanks for writing this, because it really needed to be said. I think these two remarks (about Donna not being special, and her wiles) really were the worst thing the Doctor said to one of his companions. I know, I'm not objective here, but it's still much crueller than Donna deserved.

*Clears throat* Anyway, let's not start this again :D The fic was wonderful and I just adore curious lil Jenny in it!
tkel_paris
Aug. 8th, 2014 09:53 pm (UTC)
Yes. Exactly.

Curious Jenny is exactly why Series 4 would have been more entertaining with her than without her. :DDDDDDD
dm12
Aug. 8th, 2014 08:47 pm (UTC)
Oh, yes! Loved this, always hated the way TPTB seemed to indicate that Donna was one big joke. The interaction and chemistry between the two actors certainly put the lie to that one!

It seems the primary feeling the Doctor had towards Rose was guilt. Guilt for letting her think what she thought, for not cutting off that line of thinking, for not helping her to actually grow up, and for totally disrespecting Jackie and Mickey. She actually brought out the worst in him sometimes. His guilt led to him overcompensating the other way for Martha, trying to push her away. Didn't work much, did it?

As for Donna, she is totally magnificent! She was, first and foremost, a friend to the Doctor. She didn't take his nonsense, became whatever he needed the most, whether it was support or opposition or simply someone to talk to (even if he never said much of anything). I could see him falling for that, not to mention the ginger hair! She truly brought out the best in the Doctor.

Jenny was a great foil here. She finally got them talking about the real issues and their true feelings to each other, in spite of her innocence and lack of "download" in such matters. Glad she got Donna to promise to let the Doctor love her, to try for more children. And then she healed herself! Love it, glad they were there for that and can be a family.

Now Donna has some explaining to do next time she visits her own Mum and Gramps....
tkel_paris
Aug. 8th, 2014 09:55 pm (UTC)
Yes. It's all big fodder for something I'm working on. Something that I hope makes big waves when it comes out.

Well said. Very well said. Love? Not convinced.

Love for Donna? I'm totally convinced. :)

Jenny is a great foil. Imagine bringing up the birds and the bees. (Well, I did it once. No choice; Donna was ready to pop with triplets.)

*giggles* Oh yes! And he doesn't get to avoid going this time. ;D
dm12
Aug. 8th, 2014 10:37 pm (UTC)
Big waves? As long as we don't drown, I'm all for it!

Nope... not convinced at all!

With Donna, though, I could totally see him falling head over heels before she did, or they would fall together.

Absolutely no choice... when you get that big, some kind of explanation is in order! Still, it's always fun to have Donna and/or the Doctor explaining that one. How DID those babies get inside there? (Bigger on the inside? *snort*)

No... he doesn't get to swan off for this one. Poor soul, afraid of Sylvia and her axe. Sigh!
tkel_paris
Aug. 9th, 2014 03:44 am (UTC)
I may put out a warning when it comes out, or just when it's about to come out. Because I'll be asking my f-list to help me promote it by getting the word out.

*snickers* And this is not the time to say why neither of us believes it. :D

Part of me is utterly convinced he was falling for her from the start in Runaway Bride. He didn't have any clue until later in the episode. At least not until the roof and "I thee biodamp". ;D

She asked whether Donna was built like a TARDIS. And at least one D/D fic has had a child of theirs wonder that, too. :D

Well, can we really blame him for being nervous? But he doesn't get to escape this time. Tee hee! :D
dm12
Aug. 10th, 2014 02:00 am (UTC)
I agree... I think he was falling for her. That whole biodamp scene, he was looking at her with such adoration, and why a ring while she's wearing her wedding dress? Why a ring that fit her wedding ring finger? Couldn't a biodamper be in the form of a bracelet or something else? I don't think it looked like a joke, much as TPTB might have wanted it to; just didn't work that way.

*laughs* Yes, she did ask Donna that, didn't she? It sure seems that way when you're pregnant!

Good, no swanning off!
tkel_paris
Aug. 10th, 2014 05:28 am (UTC)
Which is why some acknowledgement that the Doctor was and still is in love with her is needed. I don't count on it happening with SM in charge.

Given how well I can hide a few pounds here and there now, I may be scared with how much I might weigh when I become pregnant. (Not that it's likely at the moment...)
dm12
Aug. 10th, 2014 05:38 am (UTC)
Been there, done that pregnancy thing... several times! It did seem like a TARDIS at times. You know, though, when they say you're eating for two (or, in Donna's case, 4), it doesn't mean to eat twice as much. It just means you should make sure to get in good nutrition. Baby takes what it needs from you. I've never ignored my "full" signal, and it never failed me.
cassikat
Aug. 8th, 2014 09:53 pm (UTC)
Oh my. I'm double-pressie worthy *blushes*

Loved this one too, especially when Jenny kept setting them straight :D That adorable girl should've had more time in the show...oh never mind. That's what fanfic is for, and we do it better anyway.

Oooh, reminds me. Half done with One Decision's version of Midnight - will send it when I've got longer online.

*glomphugs* Double-present worthy...me :D
tkel_paris
Aug. 8th, 2014 09:57 pm (UTC)
I managed to finish another Jenny fic, and it's still the 8th. So... why not bless you? Your internets have given you enough trouble. *hugs*

Yeah. Which means I'll have more fodder to work with soon enough. :/

Cool! Hope you got my email. :)

Welcome! Happy birthday! *hugs* :DDDDD
inward_audacity
Aug. 9th, 2014 02:07 am (UTC)
I may or may not have squealed like a teenager at a One Direction concert at the end. This is adorable.

All the Doctors are terrible at expressing their feelings but Ten is really the worst of the lot.

I love how you made him explain his feelings for Rose. I never believed they were in love. She's just obsessed with him and he's lonely after the war so he's reluctant to let her go because he hates to be alone again. They were fond of each other, I'll give them that but that's not love.

Donna on the other hand is the Doctor's equal. He needs her because he needs someone to slap him on the head sometimes, and she needs him because he makes her better. He loves her and their relationship is perfect because it is built on friendship and understanding and respect.

Back to your story, I love - absolutely love - that Donna got to say goodbye to Jenny. No parent should have to watch their child die but it was so much harder for Donna because she wasn't even given a chance to hold Jenny for the last time in that episode. She's Jenny's parent too! They might not have shared any DNA but that doesn't change the fact that she loves Jenny. Donna was hurting, as much as Ten was. It's not fair that she didn't get to bid her daughter farewell and they needed to mourn together because they both lost something precious.

And the last bit where Jenny begs Donna to let the Doctor love her is wonderful. It's the same thing Donna said to the Doctor in that beautiful but sadly deleted scene (damn it, we needed that scene). That it won't be wrong for Donna to let the Doctor into her heart. I mean, we already know she loves the Doctor but to accept the love of the Doctor is a completely different thing and I love that Donna got to hear it.

Oh, it got really long. I'm sorry! I tend to get a little out of control when it comes to Ten and Donna.
tkel_paris
Aug. 9th, 2014 03:48 am (UTC)
I'm squeeing over a long review! :DDDDDD

Yes, he was terrible. A little more honesty and sticking with the "No second chances" thing would've served him well. Although it was Nine who really needed to follow that rule.

One day I will be exploring that, looking at both sides of the debate. Am trying to keep from assuming what my final conclusions will be, to remain fair yet factual. Both Doctor & Rose and Doctor & Donna. Not to mention Doctor & River.

Which makes stories like this necessary for our own mourning of lost opportunities. It also works as a surrogate for things in our own lives.

I like your observation about the deleted scene in light of this. Yes, it was not only necessary for him, it was necessary for her. :D

That's okay. I'm never going to argue when someone wants to go on about them in a positive way. :DDDD
alimoseby
Aug. 9th, 2014 05:18 am (UTC)
Oh...I just want to hug them both and send them off together for some alone time. And pretty sure the Doctor will enjoy the wiles. =D

Loved it. =)

~Ali ♥︎
tkel_paris
Aug. 9th, 2014 06:43 am (UTC)
Yeah... once they've gotten over the shock that Jenny's alive. Although she might just do what the icon says... ;D

Glad to know another person enjoyed it. :D
bas_math_girl
Aug. 9th, 2014 04:51 pm (UTC)
Ooooh, a bonus. YAY!! And such a delicious one that addresses THAT issue. Too right he should have squirmed about making that womanly wiles statement! There's was only one justifiable reason why he should have said it, and it was this one.
I adore Jenny as matchmaker. Why couldn't they have let her be that in the actual episode?! [Oh yeah, I forgot: RTD only allowed one star of this series and it wasn't Donna *fume*]
anyagotr
Aug. 9th, 2014 05:46 pm (UTC)
And that is why we fix it with writing FanFictin, right? ;) <3
tkel_paris
Aug. 10th, 2014 05:26 am (UTC)
Ah, if only Billie had been too far pregnant to appear. And if only they'd thought that Georgia would be a great addition. *sighs*
anyagotr
Aug. 9th, 2014 05:42 pm (UTC)
I am horrible at responding, but here is what I think of this WONDERFUL piece of fanfiction:
First of all, call me weird, but I really do love how the Doctor pins Donna to the wall(s). Tickles my fancy, I guess. lol
It's very Donna to think the worst of herself, isn't it? No one really wants her (in her mind), and she's resigned herself to that idea. What a shock to find out that the Doctor (of all beings) wants her, possibly loves her, and is jealous of any other male creature looking at her. Oh my! Jealous!Doctor, the best kind. (Although, Dark!Doctor is fun too.)
In my opinion, I think Donna should have been right by his side in the show when Jenny died. I really do. Still, made me tear up when you wrote about it though.
But, I love the happy ending! Now they really do have to give her siblings, don't they? ;)

I just love the whole idea that the entire story circled around the insult that the Doctor laid on Donna. (x2) How mean can you truly be to a woman who already thinks so little of herself? *Get's her slapping hand ready*

Great job in writing this! How wonderful of a story!

Happy Birthday to cassikat!! She's lucky to have a friend like you to write her wonderful gifts like this! :-D

Edited at 2014-08-09 05:45 pm (UTC)
tkel_paris
Aug. 10th, 2014 05:31 am (UTC)
Given some of the things you've written recently I'm not surprised you liked that. ;)

Hmm. Then you might enjoy a fic I have upcoming. Just needs a lot more work before I will consider posting the first part.

Believe me, the more I think about that line the less I like it. The more it screams for an explanation that fits with the Doctor's overall treatment of Donna.

And thank you! :D
anyagotr
Aug. 10th, 2014 06:05 am (UTC)
Oh! You are such a tease! Now I can't wait for that story! ;)

"Given some of the things you've written recently I'm not surprised you liked that. ;)

I don't know if I should be offended by that or not! lmao. Obviously not. But thank you. ;)

And you're right. The Doctor has a LOT of explaining to do with lines like, "You're not special. You're not important." and all that.

<3 Many hearts for you! :D
sykira
Aug. 10th, 2014 04:38 am (UTC)
Ten pinning her to the wall is just…guhhhhh *fans self* I'm with Anyagotr on that one! This is a wonderful piece of work, immensely satisfying fix for that ridiculous line. And Jenny was perfection ♥
DEFINITELY needs to be canon!
tkel_paris
Aug. 10th, 2014 05:25 am (UTC)
Hmm... You like Ten pinning Donna against a wall? I see I have fodder for your presents next year. ;)

Have I ever told you how much I love that icon? That is fic fodder right there. :D
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